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Friday, December 29, 2006
11:07:00 AM
i wonder how's the begining of depression stage like. sometimes i feel as if i'm heading to that direction in my work. seriously, who love being ostrazisin by others? who enjoys being condem? do ppl really get the kick in bullying others and making others feel small?!?! i dun understand.

what are them thinking all about? jus because my education level is just a little higher, does it means that i've to be "the higher up there" kind of person. it's not i've got a problem. it's u ppl. none of u seems to put urself in our shoes to feel and understand how things are. imagine urself as me and me as u. i seriously dun think i'd say things like "u are smarter wad, win liao lo" things like that just because i'm in a better education stream. come on la, do i go around and think that all ppl from the special stream are looking down on ppl in express, normal academic and normal techincal stream? no right. so damn it rubbish.

but ultimately, if one works hard, things is just the same. we could b getting the same job, same pay and learn new things together. how come ppl just dun understand this fact. do condeming ppl makes things any better?

yet, none sees the tears i've shed.
none understand how it feels to b like me.

wad i need is not a friend;
i need someone who'd gve me life.
make me stronger and have more resistance towards things,
reduce my sadness n make me the girl once again.

i badly need a life.

i jus dun belong here
i dun have a common topic w them.
i dun smoke.
neither do i go ard scolding bad words in every few minutes.

tt's y i'm totally different.